get out your magnifying glass before signing the dotted line.

Lots of thoughts flowing these days. I am in the throes of what I think may be a really big turning point in my life...let me explain.

People are really fascinating to me. We walk around town, in certain costumes, saying we are this, doing things that portray us in a certain way. In a sense, we are all these thoughts, emotions, things, features, etc all on a contract. Here I am, I do this, I love that, I am this way, This happened to me, this is what I dream of, this is who I am. And so we build our contracts. Through trying times, good times, life lessons, age, relationships, life, our life happens, and our contract follows suit.

It seems, however, that some people aren't as quick to change their contracts to fit their lives. It's like some people decide they are a certain way, and this way sounds amazing on paper, so the paper sticks. Well, lo and behold when someone else reads this said amazing contract, they can't wait to see the real thing that backs it all up. Finally. This person. They are just that good. Fitting the requirements and everything someone else really needs, they are fucking fabulous. So you can imagine the shock, disappointment, resentment and sadness that follows when the other person doesn't quite fit the contract. It's as if the subject has a bit of difficulty with depth perception and doesn't realize that they not only don't fit their contract description, they completely contradict it.

It appears that most contracts come with a fine print that we decide to either ignore, forgoe or simply don't see.

Some of these contracts are actually quite accurate, but only after a certain point. If someone is privledged enough to make it past a certain point, the contract will come true. What gives? How does anyone expect to stick around if what you say isn't what you get, immediately? What's the draw???

Other contracts ring true at first glance, seducing us with all the right things and then fall extremely flat, a little bit more everyday until the hereafter.

Then there are still those of us, who simply have no fine print. No ultimatums. No lies, nothing except the raw hard truth...before during, after and through all of life's bullshit. Each experience embellishing the intricate pages of our life contracts. True, some pages may be more detailed and tougher to get through than others, but for the most part, it's all there. And it never changes.

Why is it that some of us are willing to put it all out there, no matter what, and others don't even know how to be that honest?!

Let me just tell you, especially in recent findings...when someone tells you they are brutally honest, telling the truth or any variation of the sort, ask to see their contract. ALL OF IT.
And don't sign it until you've read the fine print.